Awareness through Shri Shri Nimishananda Guruji

Awareness through Shri Shri Nimishananda Guruji:
"question. Whether we are aware or unaware during sleep depends on our level of evolution. As human beings, all of us have three states of consciousness - jagrat or wakeful state, swapna or dream state and sushupti or deep sleep state. Our unconscious mind governs all our instinctive reactions. For instance, we involuntarily cringe when we see something disgusting or automatically reach for a glass of water when we are thirsty. We breathe 21,600 times a day without being conscious of it. Similarly, the body’s cycle of sleep and wakefulness is also dictated largely by the unconscious mind. As long as we allow our unconscious mind to control us in this way, we will continue to experience sleep as a state of physical unconsciousness. Routine noises and minor discomforts rarely disturb us, but anything that is unusual immediately awakens us. This happens because our senses relax and screen out all routine stimuli when we sleep. So the sensory input that goes to the brain during the state of sleep is minimal. This also occurs whenever we meditate deeply. However, there is one major difference between sleep and meditation. During sleep, both our senses and mind are asleep, but during meditation, our senses are asleep while the mind is awake. When we are established in this state of constant Soul Awareness, the mind is wakeful and meditating even when the body is asleep. Once we reach this stage, we experience sleep only as physical rest and never as a state of physical or mental unconsciousness."

Welcome to Shri Nimishananda Ashram

Welcome to Shri Nimishananda Ashram: "Nimisha Prasada - Quote for the day
Parama Pujya Shri Shri Nimishananda Guruji says, “The Guru is like a giant eraser, who erases all the Karmic writing written with the pen called your EGO”"

The day of arrival of our Sadguru

It was just a night away! Guruji was to arrive in the morning. Though I am writing this after so many months or shall I say 7 months after the wonderful moments of having Pujya Guruji here, the memories are so fresh as if it just happened yesterday. I keep asking myself how is this possible? I realise that the answer is also inside me. It is because the divinity within me is able to sense and connect with the divine embodiment of Pujya Guruji. However, the mind and body is unable to do so due to the karmas acquired by me in my many births and in this very birth itself and due to the shield of maya, I am unable to immediately understand all of this. This is why Pujya Guruji always advise us not to analyse divinity with logical thinking.

However with Pujya Guruji's grace, I am now able to feel certain vibrations and have had a few personal experiences that I have decided to constantly share in this blog especially to remind myself on how lucky I am and that I should not deviate from this path which is the reason and purpose of my birth.

Coming back to the topic on the day of arrival of Pujya Guruji, we were at home and about to leave for the Ashram that has taken shape in Bangsar. As we left the house and passed the Shivan Temple at Jalan Bangsar, We stopped the car and bought garlands of flower and loosed flowers.

There is something That I need to share on our personal experience with regards to our car. My husbands and his Honda CRV just about 3 weeks before Pujya Guruji's arrival met with a bad accident and was in the Honda Workshop as we were claiming insurance on a "total loss" basis. As such, my husband driving my Honda Civic and I used our little Daihatsu Charade Aura around. This car was normally used to go to the market and for short distance grocery shopping. Now that I was using the car, the little charade was used for almost every thing from sending the boys to nursery, office, grocery shopping and for all the driving around that was required for Pujya Guruji's visit.

The car the day before Pujya Guruji's arrival was giving a little trouble as there was sudden sounds from the engine. Finally, after all the final touch ups were completed the day before Pujya Guruji's arrival, my brother in law had come over to the Ashram with a few of the items from our home to be used during Pujya Guruji's visit. He took a look at the engine and said that the black oil was finished and told me to get a overhaul done. I was a little concerned by decided to leave the problems to Pujya Guruji. I contacted my foreman and he immediately told me that he would come by the house at night and take the Charade and lend me his Wira Aeroback to use.

This was such a good news as the Wira Aeroback was a 1.3 liter engine in contrast with my little charade that was a 1 liter engine and the Wira would be able to carry more items in the car for all the temple decorations. Hence our car problem was solved just like that by Pujya Guruji! It has to also be noted here that the foreman lent me his car for the whole of 2 weeks and the day after Pujya Guruji left, the foreman in the evening called me and told me that my car was ready and that he would be collecting his car! How can all this be possible? The answer in in believing in your Guru Shakti and being ready to accept the divine grace from your Guru.

Coming back to the the morning of Pujya Guruji's arrival, we all reached the ashram with all the items that we had to bring and were doing some final preparatory works and rehearsing how we were to take Aarathi for Pujya Guruji and welcome Pujya Guruji into the Ashram. During the rehearsal, we received text messages from Surenji on the arrival of Pujya Guruji and the timing for the arrival of Pujya Guruji in the Ashram.

Uncle Maniam and Uncle Mahen were speaking to the drummers and nadaswaram player and checking on the song that they would play on Pujya Guruji's arrival. As all of this was going on, we received message the Pujya Guruji was just 10 minutes away from the Ashram. Everyone was so excited and extremely happy. I had the most wonderful gift of being able to take Aarathi for Pujya Guruji who is my "Shri Guru Paramathma Devata". I never ever thought that my life would be made so meaningful by Pujya Guruji. At that very moment all I could think of was how wonderful it would have been if only I had darshan of Pujya Guruji at a much younger age.

As we got the Aarathi ready, somehow in the tension that we were all feeling, the fire from the lighter just did not light the camphor. I tried to light it but just simply could not. I saw the car come into the drive way and within minutes Pujya Guruji was in front of us . I can still remember thinking "Oh! My God! God himself is already here and waiting and the camphor is not lighting!!" Thankfully, Bakiam Akka immediately came to our rescue and lighted the camphor. Aarathi was taken and Pujya Guruji looked ever blissful though a little tired.

Pujya Guruji walked into the ashram doors with rose petals and flowers laid down at Pujya Guruji's path as Pujya Guruji walked down the aisle. It was a wonderful moment and everyone was so happy to see Pujya Guruji and to receive Pujya Guruji in such a wonderful atmosphere with warm feelings.

All working members took leave and were there ready to carry out their duties and to receive Pujya Guruji with utmost love, respect and obedience. Those who owned offices, closed their offices and were there to greet their beloved Sadguru.

As Pujya Guruji walked down the ailse, Pujya Guruji had Pujya Guruji's hands reaching out to bless everyone standing in salutations to their Sadguru at the aisle. Everyone was so happy. The happiness was even greater as this time Pujya Guruji was received in this wonderful Bungalow -Private Hotel and everything was so beautiful and warm. We all knew that we had pulled our resources to create a wonderful atmosphere at this place that now had the "Sun" itself as a resident. It is to be noted that this is the first time that this private bungalow was used and the Nimishananda Banglore Ashramites were their first tenants! It is all Pujya Guruji's miracle! Jai Gurudev!

Everything was set for Pujya Guruji's Patham cleansing and placing of Pathuka. Pujya Guruji graced the seat for the patham cleansing and thereafter, a saree was laid down for Pujya Guruji's Patham as Pujya Guruji graced the path set forth at the aisle.

As Pujya Guruji sat at the Peetam, fruit juice was given by Vicky Ananda and Aunty Maniam. All members of the Malaysian Ashram took their blessings and sat down at the darshan hall. The Malaysian Ashram lead by Devan Anna and Bakiam Akka then carried out the Patha Pooja with water, panneer, milk and flowers. All members of the Ashram were also given the opportunity to place flowers at the Lotus Feet of Pujya Guruji and it was definitely a moment to remember.

As everyone was seated, the Malaysian bhajans team sang bhajans in joy and excitement. The singers were a little nervous as they were performing before GOD himself in the form of their Sadguru. A few young devotees also sang bhajans that made Pujya Guruji break into a wonderful smile at the young devotees on their performance. Though Pujya Guruji was looking tired from the journey, Pujya Guruji never let it show and was smiling with joy and happiness and with lots of energy. Pujya Guruji looked just as happy to see all of us!

After bhajans were sung, Pujya Guruji gave a short discourse and with that, everyone took patha namaskar at the Lotus Feet of their beloved Sadguru. Pujya Guruji was then lead to the dining room where Pujya Guruji was served lunch. All the devotees were also served lunch. We were told that Pujya Guruji would have his lunch in privacy however to all our sweet surprise, Pujya Guruji had his meal with all of us and graced us with more energy and vitality. "So gracious and loving is our Pujya Guruji" This was the thought that crossed the minds of all Malaysian devotees. Pujya Guruji mixed freely with all of us and everyone felt the vibrations of love, peace, joy and calmness at the Ashram. we all could feel the difference being in the presence of an enlightened soul and immediately understood the yogic powers and divine vibrations of a Sadguru and the blessings that we had being in the company of such a holy being. Such was the excitement of the arrival of our Sadguru!! Jai Gurudev! Guruve Sharanam!

The Final and Awaited Countdown to "2.10.2009"

It was already 26.09.09 and we were all really stressed about the event of our lives and also at the same time, totally excited at the thought of our beloved Guruji coming back to Malaysia! My god! As the days grew nearer, the very thought of our Beloved Guruji arriving in Malaysia would send the blood in our body rushing to our brain in total excitement! I could not help but remember, 14.11.2008 the faithful day that I set my eyes upon Guruji. With hindsight, i can now say that indeed, it was a day of total recognition of my very self. It has taken me one whole year to realise what had transpired at that particular time in my life! I am ever grateful to my Gurudev, for giving me the insight to understand what happened on 14.11.2008. The very burning fire that I had since my day of recognition was still aflame with the same heat if not, more! Jai Gurudev!

Lets come back to 2009 and the events and preparations that took place prior to 2.10.09. The Ashram held an important meeting on 24.09.09 chaired by Bakiamji who had meticulously printed out pages after pages of pre-planned activities during Guruji's visit. Bakiamji read out each committee's duties and a check list on each committee was also carried out. Alot of basic questions suddenly cropped up on the activities of each committee and everyone was a little worried that most of us still could not quite understand how to receive a Guru, the protocols involved etc.

The incredible Devanji, Uncle Mahen, Uncle Maniam, Aunty Kamala and Aunty Vicky were the cool cats during all the meetings that were held. They would always tell us not to get too uptight and to relax as with our self effort, divine grace will instantaneously flow through us and that all preparations would flow smoothly without a hitch! I really do hope that we, the younger crowd will be able to imbibe these qualities in us!

Bakiamji had to really deal with a lot of questions from all of us especially the welcoming committee and Bakiamji really looked quite worried. Devanji ofcourse was of no help with his great big smile and constantly saying "Don't Worry, Amma and Guruji will handle everything!" That particular meeting lasted till quite late at night but all of us did not budge (even knowing that my husband would already be back from work did not quite matter) and everyone quickly noted down whatever points that they thought were important for their designated jobs.

Again a final 'check list' meeting was held on 26.09.09 with everyone's presence and all the finer issues were raised and discussed. At that meeting, Sathyaji and Kavithaji showed all of us the first print of Guruji's poster and there was joy on everyone's face, as it felt as if Guruji was already here! Oh! Wow! you should have simply seen the overwelming joy on everyone's face! Everyone was suddenly energized and the event seemed closer that ever! Jai Gurudev!

Enthusiastically, most of us really hoped and believed that we understood correctly, all the itineraries that were set down and marched off for discussions amongst the various committee groups! The count down to 2.10.09 had begun!

Raviji's wife, Geetaji along with her sister, Deviji and Raniji from Kajang made hundred of prasadam packets for all the devotees at all temples. My aunt, Aunty Rajes also in her desire to join the band wagon, packed a few hundreds of packet at home once the twins go to bed. Aunty Rajes took charge of the twins very much during the one and a half months' preparation towards Guruji's visit which in turn, allowed my mother and myself to attend all the meetings and other activities related to the arrival of our beloved Guruji. Jai Gurudev!

During the last 2 weeks to the count down, Sathyaji and Kavithaji really worked on a 'razor blades' edge' as there were numerous amendments to the choice of the photo of Guruji, the details to be particularised in the pamplets, posters and banners. There were days when they worked until 3am continuously as editing and approvals for the printers had to be given.

The moment the banners and posters were ready, everyone enthusiastically collected the required number of posters and rushed to the designated places to have it pasted. Surenji and Sri Ramji I believe amongst other areas, covered the whole of Bricfields and Puchong. In their hearts desire to reach as many readers as possible, they pasted so many posters that they ran out of their alotted amount within one to two days. There went Sathyaji and Kavithatji to the printers again for more posters!Lo! Within two days, more posters were churned out!

During that period, the cool cats, Uncle Mahen and Uncle Maniam took Aunty Vicky and Aunty Kamala to Annalakshmi to finalise the food arrangements and they were extremely thrilled to see lots of Guruji's posters all around Brickfileds. I personally was so touched to see our beloved Guruji's first poster in a SS5 Petaling Jaya 'Cash and Carry' shop. My little twins jumped in joy and scream "Amma! Look! Guruji's photo" Even today, as I write this, the poster is still in the same sundry shop which has now become my regular haunt! How else could it be! Guruji's first poster that caught my eye was and, is there!The excitement in seeing Guruji's posters every where we went in itself exhalted everyone's feeling and set the mood and atmosphere for Guruji's visit to Malaysia.

Aunty Kamala and Aunty Vicky called the caterers a few time and quotations were passing to and fro a few times. The Menu was also discussed extensively. Bakiamji was contacted by both the aunties on numerous occasions on the types of vegetables that should be used and should not be used. The caterer was so amazed by the care and concern by both these aunties, that at one point, the caterer herself came over to our home to meet Aunty Vicky in person and to discuss the Menu. Both the aunties and Bakiamji discussed every detail of the Menu at lenght including the very minute detail of 'how much and how should the curd taste'! I believe the caterer also shared a new experience with all of us. This was a first time the caterer was going to cater food without adding garlic, onion, etc. Looking at the enthusiasm of both the aunties, the caterer herself decided to be present on the day of arrival of our beloved Guruji as she was so impressed with the devotion and dedication shown by both the aunties.

During the very last week, Uncle Mahen and Uncle Maniam went yet again for a final check at all the temple venues and to meet the designated temple committee members with a view to run through the itineraries that were set for Guruji's Satsangs, place to position the peetam, available space for blessings of all who attend these satsangs, prasadam, etc . They ensured that proper sound system was available and if it was not, then Surenji would be repeatedly harresed to ensure that Surenji would bring our own sound system to the temples that required it. Again and again both the uncles would discuss the temple itineraries until it came to a point that my sons started role playing both the uncles visiting temples!

Whilst all of these activities were onging, Devanji at all times kept a vigilant eye on all the activities and made sure that all of us were on our toes. We would receive constant reminder calls and 'short stories' on how comfortable their stay in India was made by all the ashram members in India. Listening to the constant gentle reminders, we all knew that we needed to really do our best and perform to the utmost of our capabilities in all our obligations within our limited time frame, as per the timing that was set. Devanji in a very fatherly manner also reminded us that 'Guru seva was not only seva to the Guru but also seva to all the followers of the Guru'.

During the 2 memorable weeks of Guruji's divine presence accompanied by the presence of the devotees from India, adhering to this very simple but meaningful principle thought all of us humility and brought forth wonderful feelings of compassion, love and selflessness. Living by the spirit of that simple principle coupled with, the love for our beloved Guruji, every soul in the Malaysian Ashram unknowingly worked selflessly and carried out all their duties and functions without aid or assistance from anyone! Such was the care and compassion that our beloved Guruji instilled in us even without our knowledge during Guruji's visit here!

The final banners and posters were up by 30.9.09! On 30.9.09, all the final touches were carried out and we at home, were getting all the items that were to be used in the new Ashram ready for transfer the next day! By then, everyone was on a high note and the working members of the Malaysian Ashram could barely keep their minds at work!

Lo! 1.11.2009 was staring at us without a blink! It felt as if everything suddenly exhilarated so fast and even though all the arrangements were made, every ashram member repeatedly looked through all their little notes, scribbles and sketches for further final touch ups!

The day before Guruji's arrival was just a night away!

The Preparations Towards the Arrival of Our Beloved Guruji in Malaysia

Oh! Guruji! What wonders happen in anticipation of your arrival and presence?

Yes, our beloved Guruji finally was ordained by our Mother Shri Nimishamba to visit Malaysia! Guruji informed us that Amma has set the path for Guruji's visit to Malaysia and that Guruji would arrive on 2.10.2009. Guruji also told that we are not to worry and that everything will be taken care off! All we needed were open, honest and sincere hearts! "How could it be so simple?" My mind asked. What transpired thereafter, is set forth below.

Yes, "Not to worry" was our Guruji's words and that "Amma will take care of everything!" was also Guruji' words. Words of wisdom that I only understood as we progressed into action. In the beginning, it was quite difficult for me to understand, "How not to worry?" "We need to plan and pre-plan and get everything organised" said my little mind! However, having trust and believe in my beloved Gurudev, my heart kept saying with total conviction, "Hang on Leena, yes, this will happen! Have faith in Guruji".

My mother (Aunty Vicky) was so confident in Guruji that she went on happily planning all the necessary itineraries for food, looking for lodgings, transportations, etc. This was still all too sudden and shocking for me as I was worried of the costs factor and still pondering on the "How" issue. Thanks to my hearts faith in Guruji, I never questioned any decisions and just moved on simply on faith, faith and faith.

This was the first time my family was involved in preparations towards Guruji's visit to Malaysia. During Guruji's previous 2 visits to Malaysia, my family only attended the nightly satsangs at Devanji's home which was the ashram. Now that my family was given the chance to take part and SERVE our beloved Master and Guru, we were really excited, grateful and full of energy. Especially my Mother! What energy!

As the organising committee went on with the preparations, the funds came in with perfect timing. Yes, what Guruji said that "Amma will take care of everything was so true!" The words "Not to worry" just kept ringing in my ear!

Next, we were looking high and low for a place for Guruji and the 26 followers from india to stay. My mother so wanted a bungalow for the followers and even wrote a note and left it at our prayer alter infront of Guruji's photo. She wanted everthing perfect for Guruji as in her heart she verily believed that Guruji deserved the BEST!

True to her faith and believe, a boutique hotel was discovered by Sathya and Kavitha whilst meeting a client. Lo! True to my mothers faith and believe, a beautiful self contained abode with 16 rooms for everyone came into place. Again Guruji words, "Amma will take care of everything" rang in my ear.

The place of abode was an ashram in itself with luxuries such as being fully air-conditioned, self contained rooms with heaters and air-conditioned, a pool, beautiful garden, terrace, dining area with a large table to fit easily 20 people at a time, a kitchen, common bathrooms for visitors, a large conference room that was turned into a darshan hall for Guruji, a sitting place in the higher floor for devotees to meet and have satsangs, parking for devotees, etc. Such was Amma's divine plan and love for Guruji that the best abode ever was found. As we moved to decorate the place with flowers, lamps, carpets, vases and everthing to give it a divine and indian touch, the place simply blossomed into a perfect ashram. Indeed, my mothers sincere wish for "The best abode for Guruji and his followers" came true!

The transportations also fell into place and the food was also arranged. My mother along with aunty Kamala Maniam were in charge of the food and they kept a close watch on the food itenary and the ingredients that were used. Again the motto in both their minds were, "Only the Best for Guruji"!

The rest of us went on with our asignments. Sathya and Kavitha deserve a special mention here as they worked day and night getting Guruji's posters prepared and banners ready to be placed in all the temples that Guruji was to give a talk. Again their full concentration and aim during the weeks that went by was "The best picture of Guruji and the best information and Banner for Guruji"!

Uncle Mahen and Uncle Maniam also diligently along with my mother went to all the temples numerous times to see to it that everything was properly organised for Guruji's satsangs at the particular temple along with the proper protocal for receiving a Guru. Again the motto for the them was, "Only the best reception for Guruji!"

Raagitha, Yogita, Roshini and Thasha and myself were in the welcoming committee and we were to see to the welcoming of Guruji at the ashram, the followers at the airport and to the decorations at all the temples where Guruji was to give a satsang. This was a 'first time' for all our team members. We really did not understand what it really entailed but were given briefings by Bakiamji and we went on with listing the items to be purchased and flower arangements. Special mention must be made of Yogita who really worked hard in preparing the floral arrangements as it was the first time for her as normally her sister would do it. Yogita really toiled at it and took numerous pictures of her sisters floral decorations and spent a lot of time buying all the necessary items and prepared all the floral decorations during the 2 weeks that Guruji was in Malaysia. Uncle Maniam and Uncle Mahen were really superb as they arrived very early at every temple and would call me as early as 4:30pm asking me to quickly get there. Kala and Karthik also took leave from work and really worked hard to get the flowers,decorate the peetam and place the sarees for Guruji's patham! Kala's sister from Melaka would also rush in to help us when she was down from Melaka! A big hand to the Mahenthiran family from all of us!

Roshini, Raagitha and her sister Thasha definately deserve applause as they worked really hard to clear the place after every satsang and keep the items back in the ashram. They would leave right after work for the temples and stay late to clear the diaz and the "peetam" which was Guruji's seat. As for me personally, my favourite was clearing the flowers at the ashram every morning and helping to set the new flowers for Guruji. I never knew that keeping an ashram clean for a guru could give me such pleasure. Jai Gurudev! Decorating Guruji's peetam was also such a gift from Amma! placing the sarees for Guruji to walk upon was also such a wonderful experience. Again, "Only the best for our beloved Guruji" was the motto that rang in all our ears.

True to Guruji's words, "Amma will take care of everything" was a vital energy force that was really felt by all and propelled every minute arrangement and event during Guruji's stay. My question, "How will Amma take care of everything?" was finally answered by an understanding within my heart and mind by Guruji divine darshan, grace and love. It's in the FAITH that we have in our Guru and in OUR SELF that matters at every beginning and end of any journey. That very FAITH, will carry any project, aim and mission far and high and make it an adventure never to be missed and only to be felt by the heart of hearts!

What more can I say? Have Faith in the Guru, absolute faith in the Guru and Complete faith in the Guru and ,that is all that is required in this journey of life. With the hand of a Guru, life will be like gentle whispers of fresh air that comes by and waves that moves back and forth on the wide spread sea shore of love and guidance of a Guru! Jai Gurudev!

All I can think of right now to end this post is, 'Lokaha Samastaha Sukino Bhavanthu'! What else can I pray for? I already have a Guru! Jai Matha!Jai Guru Nimishanandaya Namaha! I surrender all the fruits of my actions, thoughts and deed at my beloved Guruji's lotus feet!

Guruji's blessing is simply bountiful

What can I say about our beloved Guruji's Blessing? The word that is coming to my mind is "Bountiful". Yes, that is the right word to use if I want to express Guruji's blessing. Once you have Guruji's grace and begin to feel it, the first feeling that you get is, simply wonderful. You feel that all your problems have been resolved and that it is "ok". You know it for a fact that you have someone who will look after you and handle all the problems.

This was exactly my experience. I will never forget the first time I set eye on my beloved Guruji! Oh! My! The loving look on Guruji's face and his kind gestures! Oh! Guruji! How could you make me wait so long before showing yourself to me? All my troubles and pain suddenly vanished. It was simply amazing. I felt that I had to go through all the pain and ache in order to be able to unite with Guruji at that first meet. It also crossed my mind that if not for all that pain, I may not have appreciated Guruji as I did then and now! Oh! Guruji! How could you make me wait? Will I have to wait this long in my next birth?

Yes, this is a question that is running in my mind now that I have met Guruji. Every time I think of Guruji, all I can feel is his blessings and warm smile. I sincerely believe that every thing that has happened in my life was a purposeful design by GOD to meet Guruji. You will be put in such a spot that when you meet Guruji, you will just know that "this is it" and that you are in "the right place". As I started my sadhana meditating on "Om Jai Gurudeva", in the beginning, I felt that I had a series of difficult time along with heartaches. I constantly reminded myself to surrender it all to Guruji and that if it was my karma to face such music, then so be it. Atleast I am dealing with my karma right now and know for a fact that Guruji will handle my future. I simply have this unshakable faith that my future will be fine. Guruji will guide me to my destiny.

As time went on and as I continued with my prayers to Guruji and trying to constantly sing bhajans during my free time, I remembered my love to sing and my love for music which has been 'untouched' since I stated work as a lawyer and as life progressed into marriage and children.

Yes, once we are 'touched' by our beloved Guruji grace, Guruji will rekindle all the 'untouched' penchants and talents that we have. This is the beginning of realising our Guruji. Yes, as time went by, my troubles and worries started to subside. Even when my troubles start, I always believe that it is a gentle reminder to constantly do sadhana and remember Guruji at all times. That is how the law of life reminds us to constantly remember and touch God. Oh! My beloved Guruji, why did you have to make me wait so long for such realisation?

One evening as I sat to meditate in my home during Guruji's second visit to Malaysia, I simply bust into a particular tune and a whole complete song came to me. It was then that i realised that I too could compose music and that the words just fall in place. It was all the love for Guruji and the peace of mind that Guruji gives us that allows such music to blossom.

Over the months, my troubles with Guruji's grace have vanished. Even if I do face any trouble, I take it in my stride and do my best not to react as it is part of my karma that I have to face. But sadhana has to continue. I try to be more vigorous in my meditation but stilling the mind is still not that easy.

One of the best moments for me that I cherish is my evening walks. I still remember the first time I went for a walk after meeting beloved Guruji. I would sing bhajans and just imagine Guruji all throughout my walk. I would be so at peace and thank Guruji for Guruji's shower of grace. I did not know at that point in time what Guruji's grace was or meant but I just had firm believe that it would make everything go away, make everything better and simply wonderful.

Now as I continue to walk in the path set for me, I understand Guruji's grace better and enjoy all the moments of happiness and sudden luck that is all showered upon me by Guruji's grace. Yes, our beloved Guruji's grace touches all parts of our lives and leads us to certain cross roads. The grace even opens up avenues for our hearts desire. Yes, that is the key word I have come to believe. "Hearts desire" is the closest we can get to our soul. That is why Guruji's grace allows us to discover our innate talents as it is a vasana of the soul. When we express our talents, we are expressing our souls desire and merge with our soul.

Yes, the little Amma's temple that my family feverishly frequent every friday now has opened up an opportunity for me to sing bhajans there. Yes, it is such a wonderful feeling and union of many people from different sects singing and trying to make some music in our little Amma's temple. All for the love of Amma! Yes, this is just the beginning. May I be able to discover and re-discover my soul more and more with Guruji's guidance and blessing.

How Guruji's Blessings Materialise

It was a usual friday and I was hoping to finish up work by noon and thereafter take my mom, aunt and sons out to the nearest mall. As the day started at work, I received a message from Devanji of the Malaysian Nimishananda Ashram sending Guruji's love and blessing and showers of prosperity on an auspicious "Varalakshmi viratham". I did not know that it was varalakshimi viratham of that day. I was pleased to know that it was such an auspicious day as I had planned to give some donation from our office income to our dear Amma's little temple in Taman Seputeh that is slowly growing in strenght with a few peoples support and an insistent priest who wants to find as many conributors to further develop the little temple.

I had to in the morning collect my car that had a breakdown due to battery failure. My mechanic came to the office fetched me and went to the spot, changed the battery, insisted that I need not pay until later and escorted me back in his car to my office. I was pleased that everything was quite smooth. Thereafter, I had a meeting to attend and again, the cleint fetched me to their office and brought me back as well. I was required to do an urgent agreement and that too was not necessary as the documents were not complete as yet. I was really pleased as I could take my family out After taking the family back, we rested a little. My mum suddenly wondered if our "Adi Prayers" in the temple was on that day itself. My aunt and myself told her that our prayers was the last friday of "Adi".

My mum anyway called the priest and he immediately told us that all the arrangements were done and that it was indeed our prayers. We immediately rushed and got ready. My mum and aunt immediately said that it was really Guruji's blessing that has given us this auspicious day to carry out in our little Amma's temple. I too agreed that it was indeed a blessing. Little did I know that there was more to come. We finally got all done and quickly got into the car and set off to the temple.

I managedto find another route and reached quite timely. As the prayers was going on, we were told that the temple was also going to carry out the "light Pooja" wherein all married and young girls were given an opportunity to take part. We were not ready for it as we only brought the normal offerings of garland, flowers, fruits, ghee lamp, etc.

The temple priest then told me that he arranged all the items for me and that all I needed to do was just take my seat. I for the first time in my life took part in such a Pooja and was really happy that I was a vegetarian since it was a friday and actually took only a very light breakfast and nothing more due to the tight schedule of the day.

The priest conducted the prayers slowly and carefully, singing the verses so loudly and clearly. We finished the day happily as the "varalakshmi prayers" turned out totally auspicious for all of us!

Indeed blessings of a Guru always opens and leads us to the path for more and more auspicious and prosperous life. Om Jai Matha! Om Jai Gurudeva!